{"id":94,"date":"2011-05-01T07:56:37","date_gmt":"2011-05-01T00:56:37","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/sandikovsky.wordpress.com\/?p=94"},"modified":"2011-05-01T07:56:37","modified_gmt":"2011-05-01T00:56:37","slug":"my-silhouette","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.sndi.us\/11\/blog\/2011\/05\/01\/my-silhouette\/","title":{"rendered":"My Silhouette"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"alignleft\" title=\"Silhouette of Soldier\" alt=\"\" src=\"http:\/\/saravmitra.files.wordpress.com\/2009\/04\/soldier-silhouette.gif\" width=\"114\" height=\"216\" \/>I can see clearly myself at the top yesterday, smile, shiny face, wise, and unbreakable, but&#8230;<br \/>\nLess than a minute, yes&#8230; Less than minute, it just like I was hit by a flashbang, getting shocked off. And feels like I can read every single moment right now.<\/p>\n<p>I lose my creativity.<br \/>\nI lose my idealism.<br \/>\nI lose my sense of humour.<br \/>\nI lose my mind.<br \/>\nI lose smile inside.<br \/>\nI lose my spirit.<br \/>\nI lose myself.<\/p>\n<p>Confused, that is the feeling I feel right now, and I just&#8230; Can&#8217;t understand all of this. Maybe this is my first time being desperate, don&#8217;t know what to do, just like a programmed robot.<br \/>\nMy problem doesn&#8217;t mean I prepare nothing before, no..I have prepared if this thing will happened someday. But, I&#8217;m just not ready for this&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>Yes&#8230; Because of..<\/p>\n<p>This is my silhouette.<\/p>\n<p><em>* Sorry for my bad English.<\/em><\/p>\n<p><strong>\u00a9 Sandikovsky<\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I can see clearly myself at the top yesterday, smile, shiny face, wise, and unbreakable, but&#8230; Less than a minute, yes&#8230; Less than minute, it just like I was hit by a flashbang, getting shocked off. And feels like I<\/p>\n<div class=\"entry-read-more\"><a class=\"read-more-link\" href=\"http:\/\/www.sndi.us\/11\/blog\/2011\/05\/01\/my-silhouette\/\">Read More<span class=\"cleanwp-sr-only\">  My Silhouette<\/span><\/a><\/div>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[6],"tags":[29,39],"class_list":["post-94","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-my-poems","tag-feeling","tag-inspirasi","wpcat-6-id"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.sndi.us\/11\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/94","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.sndi.us\/11\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.sndi.us\/11\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.sndi.us\/11\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.sndi.us\/11\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=94"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"http:\/\/www.sndi.us\/11\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/94\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.sndi.us\/11\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=94"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.sndi.us\/11\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=94"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.sndi.us\/11\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=94"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}